Sunday, December 21, 2025

An Abundant Life - Holiday Walk

For many years now I've heard about the Holiday Train Show at the New York Botanical Garden in the Bronx. It always sounded like it would be fun to see, but with the cold weather and needing to travel there, somehow I never found the time or made the time to go there to see it.  Someone I knew used to tell me that it was a favorite thing to do every year as a family tradition, and I'd always see it and think if it was something people did every year I'd like to see what it was all about for myself.

A few weeks ago I received an invitation to the Bronx Greenup awards celebration, and part of the evening included a special private visit to the Holiday Train Show. I've belonged to Bronx Greenup for almost twenty years and have attended other wonderful events, seed swaps and plant sharing, tours and educational programs and other wonderful times sharing information and recipes and visiting and volunteering in local gardens, but this was the first time I'd attended something that included a visit to the Holiday Train Show.

The awards ceremony was really a beautiful time from beginning to end, with local gardeners and community volunteers and the staff who teach and share knowledge with everyone gathering together to celebrate the graduation of program and class participants. There was wonderful hot chocolate and fruit, cheese and sweeter treats before, and the celebration and giving of graduation gifts was joyous. At the end they announced that we could go over to the Train Show for our private viewing, and I went with the first group that walked over.

The day had been a beautiful one, warmer than it had been and very mild for the season. As we arrived closer to our destination, we could see the twinkling lights decorating the area outside of the Enid A. Haupt Conservatory, and the tiny trains on tracks making their winding way around and through the outdoor designs and sculpted plantings. That sweet scene would have been a beautiful one on its own, but it was leading us to the entrance where we walked into the Conservatory where the Holiday Train Show had transformed different areas into a wonderland of sparkling Christmas Trees, woodland animals and creatures, and room after room of train tracks that wound their way around small but very lifelike replicas of historic and well beloved homes and buildings and bridges in Manhattan and the other New York City boroughs as well as other New York and Upstate areas. Within and around these beautiful and creatively rendered buildings were plantings that were festive and native, and the buildings and bridges themselves were made thoughtfully of plants and vines. Each one was lit up from within our without, and had information about their history that shared the story about New York and the beginnings of its transportation and buildings to this day.

As I watched the wonderful trains make their way through this holiday landscape of the history of these areas where I and my own family's history have deeply been a part of, I began to think about roots and life and how we know certain things as part of our very being. Names I'd heard often and others of places where I've lived and been and traveled and marveled at connected together throughout this Conservatory garden by trains traveling along the tracks and circling around to return again.

As I walked back out into the lovely night to get my own train back to New York's Grand Central Station, I remembered a time when I was nine years old and my Mother had asked me what I wanted to do on a school vacation. I said that I wanted to climb the Statue of Liberty, go to Wall Street, and take a train from Grand Central, and so we did all three. On this wonderful and special holiday walk through the New York Botanical Garden and the Holiday Train Show, I saw all of those things in miniature and remembered my own past and present as I took my own train journey home.



At the New York Botanical Garden
For A Very Special Private Viewing
Of The Holiday Train Show
With So Much Gratitude
To The Staff And Volunteers
And Everyone Involved With Bronx Greenup And NYBG
For Making This Evening So Beautiful And So Special!






Blessings,

Jannie Susan




Sunday, December 14, 2025

An Abundant Life - Measuring Time

In 2005 on December 12, I had an encounter with God that changed my life. I've written about this time before and about the different things that have happened over the years since then, and about the many ways that God has restored and renewed and walked with me through so many things, bringing me to new places and ways of living that I had never imagined would be possible.

For the past few years there have been so many things that have been happening, and I would say that it's more than usual, but when I really think back to 2005 and the years since then, I know that it's been a nearly constant experience that, though there are times of rest, the ongoing pattern has been one of continual surprises and activity and seeming changes of course in what I used to refer to as Adventures With Jesus.

As celebrate my twentieth year birthday and enter into my twenty first year, it occurs to me that what has seemed to be changes of course were actually sometimes rerouting or recalibrating, the way that when people drive these days with GPS, the system will send them in one way, and if they make an error or miss a turn or just decide that they're going to go another way, the system will get them back on the track that the system wants them to be on.

I remember the old days of driving, when we would look at a map or ask directions, taking the turns and roads and sections of highway on or off that we wanted to or thought were right. In a strange way, though that time had its own kind of freedom, having GPS gently or not so gently nudging us back to the chosen GPS route gives us a better kind of freedom. We can turn it off, or we can know that if we make a mistake, or someone else does, or something happens to get us off track, we'll still find our way where we were supposed to be all along.

There are times on this road that it seems very confusing, times when I think I'm lost or haven't understood the directions clearly, and times when I'm not sure where I'm going to end up. I was sharing with someone on the evening of the 12th, at a celebration for my born again birthday and their actual birthday how at times I've started out thinking I wanted some things while God kept gently nudging me toward something else, and when I realized where I was being nudged to, that was what I had really wanted all along. He had said to me that he was trying to come to a place of asking himself what it was that he really wanted, and I shared that there are times I'm realizing that question needs to be asked in the quietness of our own moments of communion and conversation and reflection in the presence of God.

So often what we really want goes unsaid or put aside because we have decided that we can't have it, it's impractical, someone else deserves it more, we aren't worthy, or we want to please someone else by letting them have it. As I walk into my twenties, this new decade of my walk of faith, I feel that God is calling me to a place of being comfortable with identifying what it is that I truly want, and to know that if it's within God's will for me to have it, it will happen, and in any case, it's all right to identify it and not put it aside for some reason that I think I should. In an interesting way, this feels akin to letting our light shine, and to being who we are truly meant to be, and when we do that we open a space for others to be able to be their own beautiful selves in all the beauty of life that is meant for them too.



Taking A Moment Of Reflection
Walking Into A New Time





Blessings,

Jannie Susan


Sunday, December 7, 2025

An Abundant Life - Thanksgiving

A childhood friend invited me to visit with her to share Thanksgiving dinner with her and her family in Massachusetts. Some of them I know and have known my whole life, others I have met recently, and others I was only meeting that day for the first time. It was such a beautiful invitation, and one that touched me deeply, because I know from experience that invitations to Thanksgiving dinner with families who are closely knit are invitations to be in the most intimate of times and to be trusted to belong in that place and with those people during one of the sweetest and most dearly beloved get togethers we know.

Seeing this friend and her family, and being reconnected with those who I had not seen in years has had such a beautiful and profound impact on me during a time in my life when I am reaching back to my own roots and reexamining my own history and my own experiences of family and friends over the years. I have had some beautiful holidays with beautiful people in my life, but somehow this time shared with a friend I've known all my life in a home I have grown so fond of and with people who are dear to me, and some who I've known as long as I can remember, was a time of peace and joy and well being deep in my soul that seemed in a way to renew and refresh and give me a clear and new foundation for the future life ahead of me.

Because we were at her home, I didn't take any photographs of the wonderful meal and beautiful people, and in its own way that was extraordinary too because I so often am documenting and photographing the things I do, the people I know, and the places where I go. Having this private time away from sharing with the world and sharing instead being completely present every moment so closely with us all together was precious. It reminded me of long ago times when it was just people being together, sharing, laughing, talking, caring, and enjoying beautiful moments without feeling the need to photograph it or create a video, when the phone was just a thing to call people on to wish them well and say I love you.

I'll leave you here with this photograph of another beautiful place where I visited with that beautiful friend a month or so ago. It too gave us time and space to be together, sharing about our lives and growing closer in peace and love and joy and caring. Thanksgiving can be a time when we focus on what we are grateful for, and I am grateful for the abundance of beauty that beautiful friends like this have shared with me.


Thanksgiving Gratitude
On A Walk With A Beautiful Friend





Blessings,

Jannie Susan